First week over, two more days to go.
And I think it's totally unwise to put Chemistry on the last day. People will not want to study chemistry in the first place and then you go and put in on the last day where people will be thinkning how to spend the next two days of freedom before school starts on friday (which is totally stupid cuz you might as well give us another day off after we worked ourselves out to the max).

All I know is that I as feeling overwhelmed. With information and disappointment. Its so crazy, why the stupid departments wat us to do well and they know how we can't even do simple easy peasy questions and yet they ALWAYS set killer papers we can't even finish let alone do well in. TOTAL ABSOLUTE RUBBISH.

But, all that's left separating me from my much deserved R&R is Maths P2, Econs (the killer with 2 case studies and an essay all together. I swear mybhand will drop out once I finish one case study) and of course, mass murderer Chem P1 and 2. P1 is not that bad cause if you feel lazy, you can just tikum tikum. But P2 is ARGHHHHH.

Anyways, I just reconnected with my ipod and I just discovered naive in it (there's tooooo many songs in it for me to listen to all of them) by The Kooks and it's been my earworm since tuesday. Really very catchy. So I checked them out on itunes and I have made up my mind. I'm gonna buy their albums. YAY. (: There's quite a lot of hype surrounding them and I can see why.

Was watching Ellen and she's filming in Chicago and I'm silently hoping and praying she invites the lovehammers to perform! Afterall, she's not a starnger to the whole rockstar series, having invited Storm and Lukas and JD on. So I'm praying for Marty to go sing. (: Michael Johns and Carly were singing today and I tell you, they both were damn good. I think Michael went out toooooo early. He would have rocked it during rock week. His version of Dream On wasn't that bad. In fact, it was preety okay (almost good). They sang U2's one today and I got goosebumps on my neck. I didn't even know we had goosebumps on our necks!

And speaking about AI, those who know me know I'm currently boy courting Cook. I don't even know why but perhaps he became too famous too fast and he's overrated now. And if you knew me, I was kinda CRAWZEE over his voice during the whole AI. So it's safe to say he probably was Man of The Month for May and June. Yes, I'm starting a new segment! HEEHEE. (: But I'm over Cook and my Man (Men, in fact) of the Month for July will be Jimmy Smith and Doug Anderson from Fight Quest! It's really cool to see two people having soooo much passion and sheer determination to do something they love (fighting) and they're really cool so yes, they're my Men of The Month!

Okay then, back to mugging!


Nobody's safe 'round here no more
Drag this lonely boat from the shore
Cut the ropes that bind me
To save the ones behind me
Nobody's safe 'round here no more

No time to wait and see
I live this life for me

Rise and fall
Climb the walls
Won't stop till I have it all
Persistance
Resistance
One man can make a difference
The battles inside of me
The fights begun but not yet won
And I won't become
One more casualty

The need to find my destiny
Drop my anchors set me free
You don't know how it feels
Till your hands are on the wheel
Drop my anchors set me free

Rise and fall
Climb the walls
Won't stop till I have it all
Persistance
Resistance
One man can make a difference
The battles inside of me
The fights begun but not yet won
And I won't become
One more casualty

Nobody says we're free
We're drifting through the questions
Swimming for the answers
Try to keep my sanity
Till I reach my destination
And bring you here with me
And I'll make you believe
I have control
But if I lose myself
How can I save you?

Rise and fall
Climb the walls
Won't stop till I have it all
Persistance
Resistance
One man can make a difference
The battles inside of me
The fights begun but not yet won
And I won't become
One more casualty

You know, sometimes I struggle with the fact that I'm doing something that I don't have a passion in. I'm talking about school here or for that matter, it can actually be applied to anything else.

The thing is, what I'm studying now, it isn't what I WANT to do. I chose JC for practical reasons like an easier entry into the university and often times, I look back and I kind of regret not taking the route that I really wanted to take. Something that I would like to do. If you know me well enough, then you'd probably know I wanted to do accountancy if I went to poly. And now, I guess I regret not taking that route.

Don't you think things would be just a little bit easier when you're pursuing something you have passion for? Or something you like doing? That way, when the going gets tough, you have a drive to push yourself because you're working towards something you actually want to achieve! It's not that I don't want to achieve my As in whatever exams I have to take but it's just harder when I don't even know what I'm studying for.I often struggle with the fact that what I'm doing now isn't what I want to do. I guess everyone should know that feeling right? You're kinda in the game but your mind and your heart isn't in it. It's like your soul is missing and that's exactly how I feel.

Plus, the fact that the major A Levels is only a mere 4 months away isn't helping. It's so hard to motivate myself when I don't see a point in what I'm doing. It's like self-affliction isn't it? You put yourself through so much pain for nothing. "Nothing?", you might ask. "But I thought you wanted to get into the university!" Yes, well technically, it is for the uni but even so, I could have gone my own way and have fun through the process and actually enjoy myself ! And that's my only regret so far. Not following my true feelings.


I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think about me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please?
See, not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave

I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I'm trying to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than ME

Welcome to Little Miss Brightside's blog! (:
This is the pilot (like in TV series) post and I guess I better lay down some ground rules.
1) This is my private blog and I get to rant about ANYTHING I want to.
2) If you're not happy by what I say or will say, then I suggest you get yourself a blog to rant it out as well. (:
3) I've decided I'm gonna put up lyrics at the end of (almost) every post. YAY. (:


Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Lights are low, the curtains down
There's no one here
[there's no one here, there's no one in the crowd]

Say your lines but do you feel them?
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around
[no one around]
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
[one lonely star you don't know who you are]

I've always been in love with you
[always with you]
I guess you've always known it's true
[you know it's true]
You took my love for granted, why oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye
Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

Make them laugh, it comes so easy
When you get to the part
Where you're breaking my heart
[breaking my heart]
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
[just make em smile the whole world loves a clown]

Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played
[role that you played]
No more masquerade, you're one lonely star
[one lonely star and you don't know who you are]

I've always been in love with you
[always with you]
I guess you've always known it's true
[you know it's true]
You took my love for granted, why oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye

All the world is a stage
[world is a stage]
And everyone has their part
[has their part]
But how was I to know which way the story'd go?
How was I to know you'd break
[you'd break, you'd break, you'd break]
You'd break my heart

I've always been in love with you
[I've always been in love with you]
Guess you've always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye