You know, sometimes I struggle with the fact that I'm doing something that I don't have a passion in. I'm talking about school here or for that matter, it can actually be applied to anything else.

The thing is, what I'm studying now, it isn't what I WANT to do. I chose JC for practical reasons like an easier entry into the university and often times, I look back and I kind of regret not taking the route that I really wanted to take. Something that I would like to do. If you know me well enough, then you'd probably know I wanted to do accountancy if I went to poly. And now, I guess I regret not taking that route.

Don't you think things would be just a little bit easier when you're pursuing something you have passion for? Or something you like doing? That way, when the going gets tough, you have a drive to push yourself because you're working towards something you actually want to achieve! It's not that I don't want to achieve my As in whatever exams I have to take but it's just harder when I don't even know what I'm studying for.I often struggle with the fact that what I'm doing now isn't what I want to do. I guess everyone should know that feeling right? You're kinda in the game but your mind and your heart isn't in it. It's like your soul is missing and that's exactly how I feel.

Plus, the fact that the major A Levels is only a mere 4 months away isn't helping. It's so hard to motivate myself when I don't see a point in what I'm doing. It's like self-affliction isn't it? You put yourself through so much pain for nothing. "Nothing?", you might ask. "But I thought you wanted to get into the university!" Yes, well technically, it is for the uni but even so, I could have gone my own way and have fun through the process and actually enjoy myself ! And that's my only regret so far. Not following my true feelings.


I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think about me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please?
See, not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave

I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I'm trying to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than ME