It feels like I have lost this fight
They think that I am staying down
But I'm not giving up tonight
Tonight the wall is coming down
I am stronger than my fears
This is the mountain that I climb
Got 100 steps to take
Tonight I'll make it 99

One more
Go one more
Don't stop now
Go one more

I have everything to lose
By not getting up to fight
I might get used to giving up
So I'm showing up tonight
I am my own enemy
The battle fought within my mind
If I can overcome step one
I can face the 99

"Facing it, always facing it, that's the way to get through. Face it."

I have to face the wrath of Financial Management. I've been reading my textbook. Guess I need more words than just figures alone.

And I haven't even touched Business Law yet. SHUCKS.

Life is not about how hard you can hit but how hard you can GET hit and STILL MOVE FORWARD. That's how WINNING is done.

MELISSA.IS.DAMN.STRESSED.OUT.

I should have studied harder, faster, stronger, better. But I didn't.
And now I have to face the consequences.

And it's only IT tmr. ONLY IT. Haha, I wish. Somehow, I let Marc's words get into my head, about how easy the paper would be. So I didn't really bother and now I've flipped through the notes, I don't have a friggin clue what would be tested!

AA101, I guess I'm lucky the mid terms were so late cause I still can remember SOME things.

AB102, HAHA. My mind is a clean slate. The earlier chapters have been long forgotten and the new ones never went in. I shouldn't have copied the tutorial answers.

AB107, what can I say? I've been disappointed my my written assignment grades. The damn 2000 words Iw rote you and you could get me a plus? NO? ONE PLUS SIGN. It takes a second to draw it and you didn't want to give it to me? Plus the fact that I haven't had a test the whole semester just seems to add oil to the fire.



I can't make up for lost time but I will work harder from now on. But first, I got to get my morale up. The pessimist sees the diffficulty in every situation but the optimist sees opportunity. I need to buck up!


The fight's begun but not yet won and I won't become one more casualty.

It's only a week away and yet I feel no sense of urgency.
Something within me has changed. Down to the very core. I wouldn't be this relaxed under normal circumstances and yet, I still am.
What is wrong? Why am I trying to convince myself that everything will be okay when I know it won't?
Self-deceit is no longer going to help at this stage.
I'm just disillusioned. Clearly, I'm not going to get my 5.0 anytime soon.
Dean's list? I wouldn't even dare dream about it anymore.
Somehow, I've been let down too many times.
Studied too hard and it wasn't worth all my effort.
Some clown who didn't study half as much as I did would probably score better than me. It always happens.



She put her shoulder down into the rain
She doesn't know how she's going to explain
That's the way it always has been, it will probably be again
Cause everyone loves to love a lie

Here's the truth about the truth: It hurts. So we lie.