It's only a week away and yet I feel no sense of urgency.
Something within me has changed. Down to the very core. I wouldn't be this relaxed under normal circumstances and yet, I still am.
What is wrong? Why am I trying to convince myself that everything will be okay when I know it won't?
Self-deceit is no longer going to help at this stage.
I'm just disillusioned. Clearly, I'm not going to get my 5.0 anytime soon.
Dean's list? I wouldn't even dare dream about it anymore.
Somehow, I've been let down too many times.
Studied too hard and it wasn't worth all my effort.
Some clown who didn't study half as much as I did would probably score better than me. It always happens.
She put her shoulder down into the rainShe doesn't know how she's going to explainThat's the way it always has been, it will probably be againCause everyone loves to love a lie