So many entries today. Hurhur.

Last night before I fell asleep, I lay awake in bed thinking. I thought of many things: the nails polishes I had (which I proceeded to mentally recall every single one), what I've been doing this semester (study-wise) and how I can change my current habits to improve the situation.

This is the situation: I'm feeling real stressed out. I have pimples to prove it. The content of my 4 core modules are pretty heavy this semester, compared to the previous ones. And here comes the paradox. I'm busy and I'm stressed but I only have 3 days of school. I have so much work to do and yet I can afford to watch so many shows. No doubt I get ALL my work done (on time, if not early, I might add). Yet I have this sneaking suspicion that I'm not putting in enough. This feeling often comes in a form of a mini heart attack especially during Tax classes when I feel like I had prepared inadequately for that lesson.

When I stayed in hall, the only form of indulgence I had was the Bridge sessions during dinner and the occasional ones when both my roommate and I were feeling really irritated with schoolwork that we had to take a break. I never watched any shows when I was in hall (Sunday night to Thursday). I only indulged myself during the weekends, especially after I knew for sure I had finished what was required of me. But now, I watch so much shows. Notice I used much instead of many? Perhaps the habit from the holidays stuck with me even though school reopened months ago. Hence, I often feel I'm not putting in enough because I have so much time on my hands to watch shows. Maybe my time management skills have improved? This seems really unlikely.

Furthermore, with the exponential increase in travelling time, and the fact that I have 2 seminars per week per module which means I need to do twice the amount of work now, I shouldn't have any free time on my hands! Not only am I able to watch shows during weekdays, I can also spend most of my Saturdays out with my family!

What does this mean? Do I have to cut down on watching shows? If so, what do I do with that extra time? I can't possibly study THAT much right?

What should I do?