Things are becoming out of control in my mind and it's making me act more irrationally than normal. I shot back at people when they questioned our Marketing presentation and then I shot gl gl when he started becoming irritating. My actions have caused me deep regret because thinking back on the two incidents, I somehow feel that I acted in such a childish way and I wish I could take them back but I can't. My anger has been kept under tabs for a few years now and I guess somehow I just cracked under the pressure and I'm really disappointed in myself. I still feel very vindictive and that feeling will never go away but it is ultimately a feeling and it is within my control to hide it or at least not let it show so much. Guess I've got to move on and not let things pile up and trip me up. On the sunnier side of things, today I did something so ethical with the encouragement of good and ethical friends and I shall wait for my good karma to arrive.